In My Life: July 2011

Okay, tonight we will call this blog "Getting Real with Jill"... cheesy, I know. But who cares... I am getting real.

So, people over the last two months have asked me, "How have you adjusted to having two kids?" For the first three weeks, I said, "GREAT! No sweat." The next three weeks, I said, "It's an adjustment." Now, if someone were to ask me that, I would say, "This has been hard!" with a possible tear in my eye that with sheer will I keep from falling down my face.

Now, as most of you know, I REALLY like to plan, be ahead and think before the curveball is thrown... you know, all that Type A baloney. Also translated by some as being a controlfreak. Well, yes, I am. Nice to meet you.

But see here, that does not work super well with adding a second child to your house. No, sir. I have had more things go wrong or change in the last two months. Not all bad and certainly not all good.... one great! However, I have realized (as I have had to learn this SAME DANG LESSON like 400 trillion times) that it is not necessarily about the CHANGE that you are going through but the WAY you handle it.

I am a controlfreak... imagine how I have handled it. Yeah, not a good color on me.

I literally have been saying to God whilst shaking my fist in the air a la Scarlett O'Hara, "I just need one thing to go right. Just one thing!" Griping at God and your parents doesn't get you anywhere, kids. (but sometimes it does make you feel better for awhile :) )

So, as I was laying down counting my woes, I said to Mason, "I am tired of going to bed so emotionally exhausted. Good thing Suzie sleeps through the night."

This is where God says, "Hey, nerd, took you long enough to figure that out!"... not really... that is what I say to myself. God says, "There you go, Jill! Your one thing!"

Thank you, Lord, for my one thing you have given me!

So, I have babbled on long enough about my emotional roller coaster that is probably going to take awhile to get off of. I just wanted to say that amidst all the craziness that you may be going through, ask Him for just one thing if that's all you can do and He will deliver again and again. I am living proof of that.

This is dedicated to my beautiful sleeping daughter... I would rather have gone through all this five more times than not have you here. I love you, Suzie!

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